5.01.2010

when it's over

it's not really over. still must finish [way] overdue assignment. then portfolio. then job search. then purge all this crap i brought home from studio and all this crap i've been accumulating and my overzealous files filled with crap i don't need to keep (especially since i have PDFs of a lot of it, too). can summer start already?

but i can sit at home and in my PJs all day while doing all of the above. for now. which is awesome.

random, current thoughts:
  • i am exhuasted. still. i've been sleeping pretty well and a lot for the past week. dr. maas was right in psych 101. you can never make up for sleep debt.
  • bear loves me. i love the bear.
  • tonight, i had yogurtland. and newcastle. happy potato.
  • i really want a puppy. but i really don't. because we'd be violating the lease of this cute (if musty) bungalow. because i'd be a horrible dog mom. because, quite frankly, i don't want the responsibility of caring for another living thing right now. i can barely care for myself. luckily, the bear is a self-sufficient adult.
  • we have two weddings this summer! yay! it's been a local wedding drought up in the potatobear household for awhile. i love weddings. still.
  • i still feel shitty about myself and don't love me that much. this past school year has taken a big toll on my self-image and confidence. just when i was finally starting to "peer inside yourself/you take the things you like/and try to love the things you don't" (thanks, regina) starting from my mid-twenties.
  • by the way...how did late twenties and thirty-really-soon creep up on me so fast? probably while i was so obsessed with schoolwork i wasn't looking.
  • but the bear loves me. my friends love me. even if i'm not on super fantabulous terms with my family right now, they love me. and i love them all. and will be able to love them all better soon...once i can love me again.
  • i miss blogging.
  • i miss really cooking/baking.
  • i need to exercise this summer. like really this time, not just the last 2-3 weeks of it.
  • i was gonna blog my toronto field trip. but i only have photos of buildings. and food. not many of people. oops.
  • i want to travel to far away places. badly. but can't.
  • forgot how nice low-key days just sitting at home with the bear can be. even if it makes us old farts.
  • tired. bedtime.

6 comments:

  1. I hope you get to loving yourself more soon.

    We love you. :)

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  2. Good to see you again.

    And what Weemo said. Take care of yourself.

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  3. What the others said. In the meantime the rest of us will try to make up for the love deficit. :)

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  4. {{hugs}}
    Hang in there for that final push. Love you lots.

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  5. love you lots.

    you should, too. there's lots of reasons to love you.

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  6. I love you AND your squito bites!

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